Personal paradigm shift9/19/2023 ![]() ![]() Being still and stagnating were never options I would have subscribed to for myself. It’s taken several years to get to the mental state where I am but I always knew it was a work in positive progress, Alhamdulillah. Whilst my paid job isn’t anything to write home about, it is still a heartwarming feeling to know I may have positively impacted someone’s life in a small way each day. Given my sons are these days self-reliant, my role as mother has become increasingly narrow and so the time is ripe to contribute to this world in other ways. Right now, the driving force for going out to work is to maintain my sanity and self-worth. However, that was never the sole incentive to go out into the world of work. Of course, there’s no denial that a reasonable paycheck at the end of the month is very welcome. This is why when I think of work I say to myself, “ I am busy living. I can’t afford to waste the chance to make it a success. Knowing that this is all His design, helps keep me in check. However, the thought that sustains me is that I believe Allah has been generous in the first place by giving me this opportunity to ease my way back into mainstream work after a long hiatus. Perhaps a few more months and years may change my perspective. I’ve always been an ardent advocate of the idea that these such interactions are opportunities to educate one party about the other.Īlthough it is early days still, I can say that I’ve never woken up for work feeling a sense of dread or tedium. Not only do I learn about others but they also learn a little bit about me or what I represent as a Muslim woman. Coming from a past where I’ve lived and worked amongst a diverse range of people in different countries, I love these such encounters. ![]() ![]() It’s exactly the kind of thing I cherish. I have face-to-face human transactions every day with people from all walks of life and different backgrounds. Now, I’m in a job where I interact with adults and what an eclectic mix of people they are! But that’s where the challenge and simultaneous satisfaction lies. A new beginning.Īlhamdulillah, it paid off. For six months, I searched for a new opening. I threw in the towel and decided to jump in at the deep end and force myself to not sink to the bottom of the sea. That’s when I knew something had to give. In total, the setup did not lend itself to a feeling that I was valued in society, or that my presence – or absence- in this world made a difference to anyone. The institution I was representing at the time wasn’t the most supportive or inclusive either which compounded the feeling of isolation. As convenient as it was to simply shift from one room to another and log onto my working life at the switch of a button, there was always something that felt intrinsically wrong – as if I hadn’t made a real transition into my working role. When I made the decision to move from working online at home to working in an office, I trusted my instincts and knew it was the right thing to do. ![]()
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